Chelsea

The joys of trying to get a good picture with a 2 year old! Chelsea came for a visit, we have missed her so much and had a great time hanging out. I have started to explain to Silas that Chelsea grew him in her tummy for mommy and daddy, it is weird that he is already old enough to start explaining how he was adopted. How time flies!

Sledding

We went Sledding this weekend and this is the best picture I could get! Si did not want his picture taken and was mad that we had to get in the car to go sledding, LOL. We had a great time though in all the snow, too bad it is melting today. We drove over to the Governor's Hill, Silas did so good on the sled (he even went down all by himself a few times). A couple of times I was waiting at the bottom for him and tried to stop him by grabbing the sled....dumb!!! He went flying out into the snow, luckily he is really tough and just laughed about it.

Bad News

I'm not pregnant, thanks for all your prayers and support.

Good things come to those who wait...right?

I am just dying for Monday to come...I find out if I am pregnant. I honestly don't feel pregnant, but I also don't know what that feels like. I feel that Ethan and I have been very patient the 9 years we have been married, and have been content with what life has given us. Shouldn't our patience bring some type of reward? I know without a doubt that I could not have gone through the fertility treatments without my Silas. HE IS SO AMAZING!!! I love all the ups and downs of parenting, we are just so grateful for the chance to have a family. Here are some pictures from this summer that I never posted. There is nothing like a picture to remind you of good times! Just out of curiosity what good things have come to you from waiting?

We got a little crazy with our wet sidewalk chalk and painted each other! I wish I had more pictures of that very fun day.

We went for a hike at the top of Bogus, the drive up there made me sick! The view was amazing once we made it to the top....definatly was worth the twisty ride.

Thanksgiving

We had a wonderful Thanksgiving down in Spanish Fork UT!! We left late on Wednesday night after work, Silas slept the whole time..THANK GOODNESS. Thursday Morning we had Pop Tarts and eggs and watched the parade, its a tradition in Ethan's family. Brenda made almost the whole dinner and the picture perfect pies below, everything tasted amazing...Thanks Brenda! We stayed with Brenda and Steve and enjoyed a fun filled weekend. We played LOTS of Rock Band, went to a craft fair (I found an awesome cloth nativity for Silas to play with), watched the parade light show in downtown Spanish Fork, and ate lots of good food. We also went to IKEA and bought Silas a bed, I will post pics soon! We had a wonderful time, we really needed to get out of town and just be around family. We miss you all already.




Silas and Levi

Thanksgiving cont....

Steve cutting the beautiful Turkey

I forgot to get a picture of us all at the Table :(


The kids table, Silas had such a good time with his cousins.

fixed

I fixed the You tube link...Thanks for letting me know I had it private Meagan. I hope you all will check out the video, Silas is really cute riding his scooter.
Thanks for all the prayers and Fertile thoughts (LOL) from everyone!

Si riding his scooter

Silas is obsessed with riding scooters, we go outside almost everyday to ride around in our alley way. I took a video of him riding but I couldn't get it to post to the blog. I was able to get it on Youtube, here's the link YouTube - November 2009 005.AVI: He has croup again so he is breathing really heavy in the video. Poor kid he gets it 2 to 3 times a year.

Insemination

We did the insemination today! Ethan was able to leave work and come down to the clinic with me. We started with an ultrasound to see how many Follicles I had...there were 3. That means there is a potential of 3 babies. BIG DECISIONS to make!!! We could inseminate with all 3 which ups our chances of getting pregnant, but the nurse said they would encourage me to "remove an embryo" if all 3 took. There is NO WAY I would do that, so we decided to destroy one of my follicles. WOW it was painful, I did get some really good meds just before to help with the pain (I felt really loopy and lightheaded). Right after they punctured my ovary and sucked out the follicle (really it wasn't as bad as it sounds) they did the insemination. Don't get me wrong I am not one of those really brave people, just before the procedure a few tears escaped my eyes ( I was trying to hold them in but they came out anyway). It just sounds so horrible when the nurse says they are putting a needle up inside of you into your ovary! But it was fast, I am sure giving birth is more painful. After that was all done I had some acupuncture done. The clinic encourages it for patients, it helps with blood flow and relaxation. I was so lucky to have it done today, Scott (the acupuncturist) doesn't usually work on Mondays and just happened to be there, and there just happened to be an open room at the clinic on one of their busiest days. I felt so lucky that everything fell into place today. I am full of gratitude right now for all of my dear friends that have baby sat Silas for my many many Doctor appointments, for those that helped give me my shots, and of course for the ones that were able to stick by me even when I was highly emotional on my many meds. I feel very lucky to have so many great people in my life. We find out in 2 weeks if we are pregnant! I will update all of you either way, I am not a private person. Think fertile thoughts for us.

Fertility Treatment

Ethan and I decided to do fertility treatments. We started.............I guess I should say I started (Ethan doesn't have to do anything but be a support) about a week ago. I took about 5 days of Clomid which wasn't too bad but made me quite emotional. Then on Sunday I had my first shot, it was in my stomach. My friend gave me the shot, I just couldn't do it myself. THANK YOU Alesha!!! Then I went to the doc on Monday, my follicles were not big enough yet so that meant more shots!!!! Yikes!!! I decided I better learn to do it. Tuesday I gave myself my first shot in my stomach and it was so EASY!!!! I couldn't believe how it didn't hurt and how fast it went. Today I woke up feeling quite confident to give myself my last shot (hopefully) and things just did not go well. First of all I did the shot a little two high, second............ once I got the needle in my stomach the plunger part got stuck and I couldn't get it to move. I was pushing it in to my stomach too hard as I was TRYING to get the stupid plunger to MOVE. I finally got the medicine to go in and it burned really bad. When I pulled the needle out I was bleeding......my other 3 shots never bled. I got really light headed, layed down on the floor and called Ethan. As soon as I heard his voice I started crying. Today was a hard day, the shot experience freaked me out and I felt sick all day long. Not to mention really emotional from all these crazy amounts of hormones I am pumping into myself. Yesterday though was a really GREAT day, I gave myself my very first shot and felt like I could conquer the world!!! I NEVER thought I would be able to do it, but I did!!! I go to the doc tomorrow, hopefully my follicles (those are the eggs when they are still in your ovaries) are 19mm big. When I went on Monday they were only 6-9mm. IF the follicles are big enough then we can inseminate on Friday. That would mean only one more shot for me (to get the follicle to release the egg into my uterus). I have learned so much about the human body....it is truly a miracle every time someone gets pregnant. I believe in miracles!

Silas' 2 year photos

Alesha took Silas' 2 year photos on Friday, I was very worried we wouldn't be able to get any good shots of Silas because he is 2 and very busy. But once again I think Alesha did a great job. Thanks!!

Silas' 2nd birthday (a little late)

Silas had a great 2nd Birthday! He loves "choo choo's" right now so thats what he got, we spent the day playing with trains and then cake at the park. It is amazing how fast they change!

Halloween

Silas wasn't excited about the dressing up part of Halloween, It didn't matter what costume I showed him he wasn't interested. That's why we went with Bob the Builder, I thought it would be a good compromise. He wouldn't feel dressed up and I would be happy to see him in the cute builder outfit. Silas LOVED his new builder hat and goggles, and wore them almost everyday except on Halloween!! Oh well its all about what he wants, right? :]

These are our friends that we went Trick or Treating with, thanks to the "Black Spiderman" we were able to get Silas all dressed up. He was fighting it till Spiderman told him how cool it all was!

I think Silas was done with pictures. LOL

If you haven't seen this movie yet see it!! This is a documentary, and has one of the most important messages that everyone needs to hear. Beware though it will change the way you look at food.

SMILE

We have had some interesting experiences lately that have caused a lot of changes to my perceptions on life. I am so grateful for everything that Ethan and I have experienced, I am so happy to have learned such valuable lessons.
The other day I was getting off the highway on Broadway and there was a man standing on the side of the road holding a sign. I immediately locked my doors ( like I always do when I see a bum), except this guy wasn't a bum. He was holding a sign that said SMILE!!! That is exactly what I needed to see, I was in such a bad mood that day. It was one of those days where it feels like Emily vs the world!!! That sign just made me realize how much better you feel just from smiling. I told Ethan the story and he is determined to make a sign and hold it up on a busy intersection on our date night. Sounds fun and crazy too me, so I guess my local friends might just see us on the side of the road one night!!! Anyone is welcome to join us.

ouch!!! My pooor Silas

Silas had his first big fall the other day!!! Serously it is really hard to see your kids in pain, I can't imagine how I would deal with him having a serious illness. Anyway he fell off of his climbing gym and landed face first on the concrete (I am not sure why I thought it was ok to have that on concrete in the first place). Ethan took Silas to the ER right after it happened, Silas is fine he just has a REALLY big bump on his forehead. Poor Silas he was in the ER only 14 hours earlier for croup, needless to say it just wasn't his day. Thank goodness kids are resilant! Whew I am glad to have that day behind us.

Family Pics!!

Alesha just took our pictures again, Silas was not happy about it but I think we still got some good ones. Enjoy

I'm back!

Sorry to all of my fellow bloggers! I have been so anti social and just didn't have it in me to post anything. I have felt very introspective and have been trying to figure out some things. The good news is that I decided I am normal, ha ha! Seriously everything is really good but there are times in life where you need to just take a step back and figure out what your part is. Anyway Life is great Silas is 18months old, and is so busy and full of life. Ethan is working at Blue Cross still and is going to school for his MBA. I am busy learning how to teach my 18month old the rules of life, and trying to remember that the hitting stage will not last forever...... right? And of course I am still at Panache and loving being a hair dresser. Recently I have become a frugal person, I am clipping coupons and am obsessed with saving money. Those of you who know me well know that that is so not me, but I guess it is now. I am glad I was able to grow up and become an adult with money. Well I hope you enjoyed the pics of our chub!

Nothing!!!!!!!

OK I know that I haven't posted anything for about 2 months now, but seriously I've got nothin! I keep trying to think of something amusing, fun, or even crazy!!! I guess I should just be grateful that life is good! I did just join the Dave Ramsey website, so hopefully we are on our way to financial freedom. I will keep you updated.