baby room

I am sure you are all wondering what my latest obsession is. Aren't you just dying to know? I am obsessed with this baby bedding! Isn't it just the cutest!

I have been drooling over this bedding! And since our baby room is already blue we will save on paint if I buy it. I figured I better buy it so we don't have to repaint. I mean it would be a true shame to cover up my blue stripped walls.....its just perfect!

We are adopting!!!

Devin and Laken picked Ethan and I to adopt their baby Girl! We feel honored and excited to adopt again!! We are excited to have Devin and Laken apart of our family, we absolutely LOVE them both! I really love that with adoption not only do you get a baby but you also gain 2 other amazing people and their families. It is a miracle that I feel humbled to be apart of.

Laken Made this for us! Isn't that so sweet? I was so excited when she told us that we were the family and was amazed that she spent time making this cute picture so it would be special for us.

This is Samara! She is due September 18th. She is measuring big so she might come early. Laken is thinking that she doesn't want an epidural........I am just amazed again and again by this girl!

I feel so excited that it is hard for me to fully share my emotions. We have been able to spend some time Devin and Laken and I already Love them! I am so excited for them to be in our life and to be their babies mommy! Gosh I just feel so lucky.

True Love

We went to McDonald's play land yesterday with Silas. Silas was so excited to have dad there and wanted Ethan to play inside the play land with him really bad.

Ethan is a bit of weirdo about germs. Yes McDonald's play lands are gross, but Ethan takes it to a new level. I was totally surprised when looked up and saw Ethan at the very top of the play land waving to me, with a SMILe!

McDonald's play land+ Germ freak Dad in the play land= true love

Life just doesn't get any better than that!

Taffy and endless worry

My day hasn't started out the greatest. I clenched my jaw all night last night and didn't wear my mouth guard. Stupid decision NUMBER 1! I woke up with a monster of a headache to my dog moving licking incessantly...........I was so annoyed to wake up this way and just wanted her to stop. I yelled "Taffy stop" and rolled back over to try and fall asleep. She didn't STOP! UGH, I am really annoyed now.......I pushed her on her back with my foot and said "STOP". Thinking......"Taffy always listens to me, why isn't she st oping". I pull back my covers in a very dramatic annoyed fashion to find my poor Taffy is having a seizure. Wow I am the biggest jerk EVER! Stupid decision number 2!

Lets move on to the endless worry............. I hate interviews! I get so uncomfortable, and nervous, and fidgety, and weird, and the list goes on and on! My adoption interviews start today.......I believe we have 3. The first one is a family interview, the next is individual and I am not sure about the 3rd one. Yes we have been through all this before with Silas, and I hated it just as much that time! I was excited and nervous when it came time to meet my birth family and getting to know them. but meeting with a case worker and being questioned on everything that has ever happened in your life makes me feel like I am naked at church. LOL. Ugh! Anyway I know that it will be fine, life will go on. However it is making me feel a bit emotional, I cried pretty hard last night about it. What if they don't like me? This case worker has the power to say no you can't adopt (I know that won't happen). I just hate knowing that such an important thing to me is controlled by someone else! I HATE IT! I know the adoption process will be an amazing journey, but............ I will still worry about the whole process till I have a sweet little baby in my arms and have gone to the courthouse and the temple.

One more thing. I have a client that believes that fertility medicine can make a person crazy. I really haven't felt quite like myself yet after the treatments. I know that I am not crazy and that the meds don't do that............ but every time I cry I think, is that medicine fully out of me? I HATE the hormone treatments and I am so glad to be done with them. Some of you may think why I go through so much to get a baby, heck sometimes I wonder why. However, every time I look at my Silas I know that it was worth going through so much more to have him as my son. I know we are suppose to have another child. So bring it on! I can take......i might just need to have a few more nights of crying about it.

How was your day?

PS Tammy BROOD feel free to leave a comment :)

Silas

Silas use to hate dressing up, but has now seen how cool it is to be a super hero! I love this picture of him with his cute friends

Silas is growing way way too fast! I love seeing his personality and hearing the cute things that he says. He is still just as active as ever, but is able to sit and draw his name for at least 5mins.......its progress. I am glad he is at least interested! Thanks to my friend Alisha Z I got this really cute picture of him jumping off the rock! I love this picture because it is a perfect representation of my Silas! He lives to move, and every moment is to be enjoyed.

This is how I get my hugs now, I wrestle him down and squeeze him tight as he tries to run away.

Silly face show off stage!

I love this cute straight smile he has.

Silas NEVER EVER EVER cuddles with us! To my surprise he cuddled up with Ethan on the couch and fell asleep! He has done this twice now.......I had to get a picture of this very sweet moment of him cuddled into Ethan.

Band aids are his latest obsession. He is always making up new boo boos so he can get a band aid. I thought it was so funny that he put it on his nose. Silly kid! Don't his eyes look amazing in this picture? Gosh I just love this kid!