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We painted Silas' room finally! We switched his room with the office a few months ago and have been meaning to paint his room. We finally got around to it. We are so happy with the color, sometimes when you pick out a color it doesn't look like you hoped on the wall. This turned out exactly like I thought WOOHOO!

My new obsession

I can't believe that I am about to say this...........Move over Peanut Butter and make room for my new favorite...............SALTED CARAMEL!

I love all of your varieties!! Salted Caramel hot chocolate, chocolate cake with you in the middle, and all the other varieties I know I haven't tried............. yet I KNOW I will love you too! Sorry Peanut butter I just can't love you like I use too.

To be a Women

I've been looking around lately taking notice of all the amazing women in my life. Sometimes (as most women do) I compare myself and start to feel somewhat inferior. As a women I feel the need to be talented. I want to be a amazing cook, parent, decorator, friend, writer and the list goes on and on. I know it is impossible to be all those things, but am I the only one that compares? I will look at others blogs and think why can't I cook like her? Some are sooooo skinny and beautiful that you just feel dang UGLY around them. Others write beautifully sometimes they make you laugh other times you want to cry. Some have an amazing talent of refinishing things and making something that was ugly beautiful. Others have crazy hard burdens to bear and you wonder how they are able to smile and be an uplifting fun person ALL THE TIME. Some people have really cute apartments or houses and seem to know how to decorate EVERY corner. Some people walk as if they never doubted themselves and are sure of every decisions that they have ever made. Some people are on amazing personal journeys that have led them to lead others in changing their life. Some are so healthy and have committed to never eating anything bad for you again! Others are physically fit, they are strong and able to run in Marathons. Some make the most amazing things, (books, hair things, towels, hats, and soooo on!). Others have the most amazing style, and ALWAYS look so put together. Sooooo I was thinking I just want to tell you all how amazing you are! I am going to stop comparing and just feel THANKFUL to have all of you amazing Women in my life. HAppy Valentines Day a day late. SPREAD THE LOVE!

5 years ago

5 years ago we celebrated our 5th anniversary in the Oregon coast! I love looking back at pictures. I like seeing my old hairdos, the changes in my face and style. I like thinking back on how things were and how I have changed. I realize how much I have accomplished and grown to be the person I dreamed of. I especially love realizing that loving my husband has only grown stronger and stronger! I feel so lucky to be his wife! This post is a tribute to my Hubby......so please if you have a weak stomach DO NOT read on. I just have to write about our Valentines Day and how grateful I am for him!

Ethan did not have to worry about an exam or paper or anything to do with school this Valentines day and for that I am very grateful! We stayed home and made dinner together this year, it was one of my favorite Valentines DAY! Ethan planned it all, made the menu, bought the food and planned the night! After our delicious steak blue cheese Salad and yummy sweet potatoes we had chocolate lava cake (that was missing a little lava) with fresh strawberries on top. We then looked at magazines and pulled out pictures of what we want our home to look like. This is one of my favorite things to do. Then we did couples yoga in our living room (we just took the couples yoga class at Panache last week and it was amazing). It is so fun to try new things with your spouse. Ethan planned every last detail of the whole evening! I felt so loved............I realized that my husband does listen to me and has learned to do things for me that I would like and not what he would like. Does that make sense? Anyway...........I really didn't do much this year for him so I really need to make it up to him. I guess I am going to have to go rock climbing or do something really active...........which I am happy to do I just ALWAYS look like a fool! What I really wanted to say though is Thank You to my amazingly patient, sweet, attentive, sensitive, fun, goofy, and hot Hubby! I had a great valentines Day!

PS I really needed this night because my Hormones are all out of whack and I am SENSITIVE right now!!! GOOD NIGHT!

Please explain this to me

Have you ever been consumed by a dream? Ya know a dream that you sleep walk in? A bad dream that causes you to scream and yell at those around you? People try comfort you but all you want to do is hit them and you tell them to go away? You soon realize that you need to pee BAD......so you walk over to the toilet and start to pee. Then your enemy that you were screaming and hitting grabs you and picks you up. They take you to a room that has a REAL toilet and then you wake up. You realize that you just peed all over the stairs! Has this happen to anyone other than my SON?!!! Silas has been having night terrors. The other night he walked over to the top of the stairs and pulled down his pants to pee. He NEVER EVER goes anywhere except in the toilet......this kid was so out of it and had no idea what he was doing until he saw the real toilet. LOL.......Just had to share.

Look at this dresser!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE vintage dressers!!! I found this beauty already painted on Craigslist for $40 bucks! This thing is 6 feet long, and very sturdy............I helped Ethan get it up the stairs and it was HEAVY. Now Silas finally has a dresser of his own!

Baby Kyla

My new favorite little person was born on Jan 1! I got the cutest picture of her the other day and had to share!


What a cutie pie...........I just love her sweet face!!! And I love watching Alisha be the best little mommy with her sweet Kyla, I just love these two!

Baloons!

We went dowtown to see the hot air baloons take off back in September. We had to get up really early.....but it was worth it! We loved watching them all fill up and float away.
I just LOVE this picture!!!! The boys look so cute looking up at the baloons. These are some of our good friends Connor and Kael. Silas and I spent the whole summer at the beach with them.
Lindsey and I........she's the one that got us all to go. I just love this girl.
Silas was being a little grumpy.

sleepy night

---------------Silas has been sick. -----------

Every time I lay him down he coughs. I heard that putting Vic's or essential oils on their feet will help with coughing. So i put him to bed with peppermint oil and socks on his feet. when I woke up I found him like this.


Silly kid! I guess he wanted them on his hands instead. I am not sure if he was awake or asleep when he did this.............he is so funny!

Funny story

The other night I woke up to him poking my arm saying "mom cuddle me". I was sooo happy because this child Never wants to cuddle. So I scoot over and go to grab his hand to pull him into my bed. He yells "no mom, my bed", thinking.........Ugh this child is silly I crawl out of bed and sleepily walk into his room with him. Silas lays down first, I stepped over him to lay down and as I am doing this he says "MOM you are breaking my bed".........REally? So I lay down and put my arm around him and he says "Don't touch me mom" Rolls over and scoots away from me. I guess he didn't want to cuddle after all. LOL

Date night, and haircut

I came home from work one night to find this cute poster taped to my laundry room door. This is just one of the many reasons why I love my hubby!!!! First of all anyone that knows me knows that I LOVE candy and secondly who doesn't love a candy gram? It took me back to being a teenager, you know that time in life when you spend time thinking of sweet funny things to do for each other? It is nice to feel like I am still being courted. I love how thoughtful and fun my husband is.........I am lucky to be married to him.
Gosh I love that Chocolate face!

Silas got a haircut! Silas really liked his longer hair and so did I, but being the hair dresser that I am I thought it was time for a change. He has always disliked his hair sticking up (not sure why he even cares) but after lots of "don't you want to look like dad" and listing all of his friends that have short hair Silas decided to let me do it. I can't believe how much older he looks. You are growing too fast Silas!

fertility and Adoption........say what?

We decided to try another round of insemination, and to start the adoption paper work. I have been feeling private about this because frankly I don't want to talk about it.............unless I bring it up.
I got my drugs in the mail the other day, as soon as I laid my eyes on them I cried. THANK GOODNESS for good friends!! I have so many close girl friends right now that would do anything for me and one of them came over without even giving me the option. It is nice to feel that you are not alone when you are sad.
So why am I doing the fertility? Well I have always felt that there is a little girl that needs to come to our family and I have always thought that I would give birth to her. I am not 100% sure that this is inspiration.....it might just be a dream. I figure I am 29 and now the is best time to try if I don't try I WILL always wonder. So there you have it. Thanks to all my cheerleaders for keeping me on course.....I am not sure why but fertility terrifies me!!! So I have to face my fears.

Adoption is a miracle that I want to be apart of again. However, this time around I am feeling VERY vulnerable. I keep thinking "I am not a perfect mother.....why should I have another child?" I know that no one is perfect but I still believe it somedays. It is hard to be under the microscope of adoption. I get sick of trying to prove that (in a very tired tone) "yes I am a good mother" "yes we have a good marriage" "no we do not beat our child" "yes we are temple worthy". I am not sure why all of my courage is gone, but it is. So I may drag my feet a little but I am doing this! I know there has to be one more child for me to love. It is so painful to be denied something that is soooo natural. I will keep you all updated..........the paper work is a long process and I am just getting started.

My Parents

Dad and Silas. Silas just LOVes his Grandma and Grandpa!

My parents moved here in August!! I never thought they would move to Boise and I still can't believe it. We are even in the same ward. It has been a blessing to have them here. I am closer with my parents then I have ever been. I am 29 years old and thought I was past needing my parents but now that they are here I realize that I need them now more than ever. So here's to you Mom and Dad! Thanks for all the fun times! And for bailing me out a time or 2. Love ya!
My mama and I, gosh our noses look identical

Exercise and Barber to Boise

This past year I focused on changing my diet and lifestyle. I started running, drinking green smoothies, and eating more whole grains. For example, instead of just brown rice, and pasta I added quinoa, and whole wheat flour. I also tried to cut down on our meat consumption by eating beans. I found most of the information from the greensmoothiegirl.com. She has a book called the greensmootie diet and 12 step to whole foods. Her books are so informational and take you step by step. Another really good resource is a blog by a friend of mine, called kamisniche.blogspot.com. Her blog focuses on living a more natural lifestyle. From cleaning to eating and great natural remedies by using essential oils. I hope you will check it out. Below is the recipe I use most of the time for my green smoothie. They may sound terrible but are actually really good.

Ingredients
Spinach
1 of the following greens (Chard, Kale, Collard Greens, etc)
Banana
Strawberries
1 of the following Apple, Peach, Pear, Mango, Mellon
A few drop of stevia or honey
2 table spoons of Flax seed

Directions
Blend 1 cup of water with greens (Spinach and 1 other) until it equals 2 cups. Add Banana, Strawberries, and 1 other fruit of your choosing till it equals 4cup. Blend in Stevia or honey and Flax seed.

You can make the smoothie ahead of time and store in the fridge till the next day.

Since the winter hit and running outside is my only options (I HATE running on a treadmil), I joined Jillian Michael's website. Her Workouts are HARD and I LOVE them. For the first time in my life I actually have a visible bicep muscle. LOL. I use to HATe working out but I am finally to the point where I crave it. Does that mean I do it everyday? No.....but life is a journey and if I get it in 3 times a week I feel good. I don't care to be a super model I just want to be strong and healthy.

I promise you will still see me eat a snickers, or a slice of pizza. I just love bad food sometimes...especially around that time of month. But I am trying really hard to use moderation in all things. I am one of those people that think it if 1 is good then 10 is better. So wish me luck in remembering that 1 is just the right amount. What are your health goals?

Me and my friend/coworker Mollie and our cute kiddos. We ran our first 5k in September! I can't say that I love running........but I love how I feel after. I am a really slow runner, it takes me about 11mins to run a mile. Speed is not my goal......finishing is. Don't worry my face always looks that red after about 2 mins of running. LOL