Shut up

That's right I said it laughingly to Ethan the other day and have regretted it ever since! Right now at this very moment Silas is in his bedroom screaming "SHUT UP" to me. UGH........not sure how I will handle this one yet (Good thing Samara is a heavy sleeper :) ). I think its best to sit here and blog about it instead. Pretty much every bad word that Silas has learned is my fault. Apparently I use the words hate and stupid a lot too!

Last night I made Carmel apples! Yum I have been craving them and felt that my life would never be complete till I made them. I've never made them before and I don't think I cooked the Carmel long enough because most of the Carmel settled to the bottom. BUMMER! I still ate them because it did taste great. I had cut the apple up into smaller pieces though (which took all the Carmel off, good thing I had extra) and eat it with a fork because it was MESSY! I just felt so annoyed that my apples didn't turn out like my friends or my sisters (Yes I have sister issues, I have 3 older sisters to live up to). Isn't it amazing how these little mundane things can really put you in a bad mood? Anyway as I was cutting into my second apple, Ethan said "I am concerned about our health". That was the tipping point that sent me to tears, not right away though. At first I was just angry, then I knew he was right and I am just stuffing all my feelings with food. We talked about eating healthier and me not making as many treats. After I cried on Ethan's shoulder, I did what any girl would do..............I decided to cut bangs. YES Bangs.  I usually have bangs but they have grown out past my nose and I hadn't decided what to do with them yet. Anyway I love them, and felt better.

I have been thinking though about experiences that we all have in life that leave us feeling.........jipped, angry, sad, discouraged, and alone. We all have them, and all of us tend to talk about these experiences more then needed, we can't seem to let it go. You will be talking with a friend and it usually starts with "When I was".............followed by some number of how old you were. I don't want to spend my life feeling bitter, I want to be grateful for my experiences. Good and bad. How have each of you let go? Please share, before my Carmel apples are almost gone....LOL

Just a little side note. I had Silas come down and eat lunch. Ya know what he wanted to eat and make all by himself? A turkey jelly sandwich! Did I let him? OF COURSE! After lunch I sent him to bed for a nap (he doesn't take naps anymore) he was not happy about it, but listened and got into bed...... he is ASLEEP! Success!!!!!

Now how about some pictures.

This was us on Halloween. Tiger Lilly, Captain hook, Peter Pan, and Tinkerbell. Yes I am wearing a snuggie....lol. It was

so comfortable!

Samara in her Sunday Dress

I can't believe how hard it is to get a good picture of them together!